Day 29 - I Can't Do It

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make the statement that `I can't do it` when I have not tried, allowing myself to create doubt before I start, and allowing myself to create a resistance to `doing it`, allowing myself to believe that the `I can't do it` is real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the `I can't do it` is not real, that I am able to do the physical tasks through placing myself in physical work, stopping the mental games that I play about being able to do it or not do it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to build up all these mental ideas about getting a point done allowing myself to physically resist getting/working with a responsibility where I will allow myself to get tired, I will look for things to `assist` me in getting it done like food or drinks, where all it takes is me moving the physical equal and one within breath, not allowing any mental shit to get in the way of moving myself here in the physical until a point is done

I forgive myself that I have accepted ad allowed myself to create a mental block towards working on homework, allowing myself to create an idea about the homework and working on the homework as if the homework is more than me, or the development of the assignment is more than me missing the point that it is me in fact, in this taking responsibility for getting the assignment done and stopping all mental fuck up s from holding me back physically from writing out a point

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take myself in the physical breathe and work on the homework equal and one, simply developing the homework like anything else as I move within the homework stopping the resistance towards doing the homework as well as pushing through the resistance to working on homework until competition

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself physically become uncomfortable when working on homework, fidgeting, getting up and looking for food, allowing the mind to run and race and become stressed out at `not being able to figure out` the solution to the assignment I am working on when the solution does not result from constant thinking but physical action within the homework

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stop and breathe in order to stop all the little things that I am allowing myself to distract and `annoy` me focusing myself here on the homework in immediacy and applying myself within it without any ideas or beliefs of about how the homwork should play out, and apply myself in the physical using breath and take myself within the phyiscal and move the physical equal and one until the homework is done and I am satisfied with the homework

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to distract myself by the `want to make the experience the best` through playing the `right` music causing me to download and wait all the while searching facebook for something to pay attention to, only allowing myself to not focus on the homework itself in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not focus myself on the work in front of me, removing all distractions from my mind and working with myself here , breathing with and moving with/as the physical until the homework assignment is done and I have looked it over assessing if it meets the requirements

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to start homework with the starting point of getting it done as quick as possible, missing myself in the opportunity to be creative with the homework, only allowing myself to rapidly get the homework done, causing the homework to not be up to par and allow myself to not get a good grade due to the rushing of getting it done, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not do the homework assignment with applying myself within the homework assignment, where I will take the time to look at each sentence that I am writing and ask if that is the best way that I can explain that which I am attempting to explain, take the time to fully develop the myself within the assignment, doing more than the bare minimum, but excelling in the assignment as I am not attempting to get it done for the sake of getting it done, but to expand myself within, to apply myself within, to get an understanding of my capabilities within the homework and expand on the capabilities

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the physical tiredness that I feel is only the resistance in manifestation and that if I allow myself to breathe the tiredness goes away, and breathe within actually breathing, breathing as in letting go of the point of tiredness and placing myself here and walking with what is here immediately, allowing myself to direct myself in what is here within being awake, stopping the fogged cloud existent within me while attempting to work on assignments and push through resistance

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to no realize that homework is not a pointless tasks, that there are things within that homework that I can use to expand myself in ways such as sentence structure, taking the time to effectively convey the idea that I am explaining, building of my vocabulary, and being creative with tasks, allowing myself to move past the accepted and allowed limitations of only working with that which I have already worked with and know myself within, not allowing myself to take on new points within homework, wherein the assignment consists of being creative, on expanding myself past the monotonous written word that I usually will choose to do and not allowing myself to investigate new homework assignments that involve creativity, that involve some application into/as the structure and design of the assignment, instead of only choosing written essays that which I am comfortable with

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not push my comfort zone in doing homework, allowing myself to stay stagnant within the application of myself within homework, only allowing myself to stick to one type of project, resisting all other projects that involve aspects that I have not applied myself within before, fearing the outcome and fearing not being able to do the project appropriately and in that getting a failing grade and having to do the assignment/course over again.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I cannot do the homework that I have been assigned due to pre-programmed ability, not seeing that I am able to move past the limitations that I have set upon myself, breathe and start the assignment within the physical by putting the physical into action and writing the first few words on paper/computer and start to expand from there, develop the points that I am writing about, develop the structure as I move along, stopping the constant thinking about `how am I going to do this` `what am I going to write about` `I don't know how to do this` in this stopping knowledge about what and how to work on an assignment and moving with the physical developing the assignment the more I work with the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow myself to limit myself through believing that I am not able to expand in the homework assignment allowing myself to give up within the belief instead of questioning that belief and placing myself in the physical and moving with/as the physical, developing myself equal and one with the homework assignment until it meets the requirements of the assignment and I am satisfied with how I have developed the assignment, realizing that the beLIEf was only a LIE and that I am able to move past the beliefs of myself within homework assignments and with all beliefs in fact, allowing myself to realize who I really am within/as the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist expanding myself within homework stating that I cannot do it because I do not have the knowledge to proceed in the work, when I will never have the knowledge if I don't apply myself within/as the work, allowing myself to give up before I start, to limit myself extensively in what I allow myself to participate in, and allowing myself to never expand because of the simple though of `I can't do it`

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be foolish enough to give into the thought and create the thought that I cannot do it allowing myself to not take responsibility for moving myself within the information that is the homework and move myself, taking the physical actions necessary to complete the homework until it is done, stopping and moving past the thought `I can't do it`

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live within/as the thought `I cannot do it` as if it is real, only allowing myself to limit myself within believing that it is real and never in fact move myself from beyond where I stand now because of the limiting belief of not being able to do it, allowing myself to stay stagnant in my life

I commit myself to moving past the thought `I cannot do it` when and as I think the thought, stopping myself from using the thought to stop doing what I am doing and participate in self interest pushing myself in getting the homework assignment done until it is complete and until it meets all the requirements needed

I commit myself to stopping the beLIEf of being less than something and placing myself equal and one to that which I believe that I more than and/or less than and move with it/as it equal and one until I understand it in all facets equal and one

I commit myself to when working with homework take my time to develop myself within the homework appropriately and to apply myself within the homework to develop myself further within creating myself equal and one to the point within the homework, stopping myself from giving up because I am not immediately understanding it

I commit myself to push myself in starting an assignment through writing the first words and getting the ball rolling allowing myself to move from there, allowing myself to re-do the assignment when I have developed myself within the assignment further on in the assignment to make sure the assignment flows properly.